Lyrics
It’s only been a couple weeks, and yet I feel so fucking weak,
But this craving just won’t leave, it feels like its stuck in me,
I need to get lit, cause I been fiending for a hit,
But in the back of my mind, a voice screams for me to quit,
I really can’t though, you don’t understand,
It’s got me by the hand, man, and it won’t let go,
As sweat flows from my palms, the thought echoes in my mind,
I try hard to stay calm, cause this is some prime time,
That I’m missing out on, I could be happy and relaxed,
Instead it slaps me in the black, a trap, that just attacks,
You at random moments, until you can’t hold it in,
Amazing how a small thing, is controlling men,
[Imma man up and admit it, I’m addicted,
I love the way this shit makes me feel,
I know it aint appealing, and it isn’t ideal,
But on the reals man, I get lifted, I’m addicted]
I was on the verge of quitting, but the urge I’m getting,
Is too strong, so much it feels like I’m withdrawn,
It’s been long, so long in fact, I think I’m having a panic attack,
Man I have to get back to it, there’s no way through this,
So here I am, just relieving the stress,
That I was keeping suppressed, deep in my chest,
And it feels amazing, I’m at ease with myself,
[]Don’t care what others say, cause this appeases my health,
I’m in a, world of my own, floating on cloud nine,
They say you’ll never find your peace, but homie I found mine,
This a real sound mind, and it’s hitting the spot,
Like mental masturbation, man and I’m kidding you not,
But I fear getting caught, what if they take it away,
It loosens up the pain, but, that’s like making it stay,
I’m not having that, I refuse to, lose the thing that I choose to do,
Even if it’s news to you, that I’m addicted….
[Imma man up and admit it, I’m addicted,
I love the way this shit makes me feel,
I know it aint appealing, and it isn’t ideal,
But on the reals man, I get lifted, I’m addicted] 2x
I could never have imagined, myself as an addict,
To this day, I can’t explain, what the hell has truly happened,
All I knows I gotta have it, it’s become a fucking habit,
Without it in my life, my mind, it turns to havoc,
If you haven’t noticed, I’m not talking about a drug,
This isn’t about smoking, I’m talking about my love,
My addiction to the game, my addiction to the pen,
Lift it up, and do the same, thing, over again.
[Imma man up and admit it, I’m addicted,
I love the way this shit makes me feel,
I know it aint appealing, and it isn’t ideal,
But on the reals man, I get lifted, I’m addicted] 2x